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~ Hmm I Really Do Love Talk-Head-Off ~

adiwenatb — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 18:50:59 +0000

chit chat

I think i’m not a good speaker in some situation like forum or somethin like that. I also not a good listener, but i always unintentionally hear a lot of things… hehehe how poor me .Hahaha dont know why suddenly i wrote the sentence before. Actually..My weekend conversation was a trigger for me to realize that i really do love have a chit chat. It make me come back to the past…

When i was in elementary, i wasnt noisy child in class.. so i’m not sure that i had interest in chit chat

When i was in junior high school, i also wasnt noisy child in class..but i started to have a long conversation through the phone..hahaha the phone billing was scarry me..

When i was in senior high school, again n again i wasnt noisy child in class..heheeh but i had a lot of quiet conversation with my friend in class (start to break the rule behind the teacher)…but i am really2 a phone addict..hahaha horrible addict.. (1 hour..2 hour..3 hour…)

When i was in university, hahaha still the same person like before. In early semester just through sms..direct long conversation with my close friend in library..my home..other comfort place for chit chat. Then in last semester i was a quite phone addict.. hahaha but not as horrible as in my senior high school.. just infrequently call but so long conversation (talk-head-off… more than 5 hours conversation was my record). My final project share time with my advisor was also chit chat time about something out of my FP which is so interesting.. hohoho i miss my advisor (mami Titiek).

The summary is.. i am so quiet person… BUT dont SIT beside or close to me!! You can find my self as an addict…hahaha… happy conversation…happy chatting…happy sharing…without coffee and smoke please!!

~ Nothing Without You ~

adiwenatb — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 20:21:39 +0000

i am nothing..

i just lay on You

beneath the rain

beneath the sun

beneath the dark

look around

as a linchpin

mumbling in a silence

“i want to but…”

“i dont want to but…”

You can finish this mumbling

just You..

wish You read this..

i will always waitting for You

~ Yippie I am 23 ~

adiwenatb — Thu, 29 Jan 2009 13:29:35 +0000

Yippiee… now i am 23!! Am i good enough now?? Hmm.. i hope so… i always hope that i will become a better person… even now =p. Thanx to Allah who have been giving a lot of media to remind me, shalat!! read the holly quran!! read tafsir!! doing dzikir (wondering how much fault that we’ve done). Istiqomah on His way…”nothing is impossible”, i’tibar on every incident.. “there are no accident”.

I am so satisfied with His destiny for me in 23 in order to improve my everything. There are no excuse to complain (hehehe horay i am going steady). A lot of things happened to me and a lot of things became chapter of a lesson, there are no pleonastic things.

GOD never burdens a soul beyond its means: to its credit is what it earns, and against it is what it commits. “Our Lord, do not condemn us if we forget or make mistakes. Our Lord, and protect us from blaspheming against You, like those before us have done. Our Lord, protect us from sinning until it becomes too late for us to repent. Pardon us and forgive us. You are our Lord and Master. Grant us victory over the disbelieving people.” [2:286]

Special thanx to my lovely people who gave me some great pray-message on that night.. huhuhuhu you made me so touchy.. all of you really know what i endeavor for, and also for ridiculous way to leave a strange package outside =p.. Hmm i really2 do love you so much. Thank you =).

~ Jason Mraz :: Lucky ~

adiwenatb — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 09:57:44 +0000

Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I’m trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Everytime we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music fill the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

~ The day is 6 hours earlier than my day ~

adiwenatb — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 09:37:17 +0000

My day drastically change, when people wake up it’s my time to sleep.. “what a strange life!!” In a general way, people feel so excited with the activity under the sunshine..under the noisess. But now i find something, in the dark sky.. quite night, something that someday will harder to reach. I call it “A simple life” it gives a lot of thankfulnes, just like use horse glasses.. everything is pointed to the same end.. the almighty one. Eventhough, now i am on my way to get the 6 hours back so that the day and my day begin in the same start again.. i realise that it’s my time to get out from my lovely own world and face all that noisess..and sunshine with the expectation “i’ll find another simple life there”.

~ Tobacco Hazards Prevention Act ~

adiwenatb — Sun, 04 Jan 2009 09:32:05 +0000

As usual… today i checked my e-mail inbox. Hehehe… cliked the browser and then type hotmail.com, yahoomail.com, gmail.com. ya… that ‘s my habitual activity when connect internet meanwhile my messenger automatically login. Actually, these email has its classification.. for fun or for the important case.

AIA NTUST-Taiwan is one of association which still send me recent information about any policy or something “happening” there to my e-mail altough i havent had any business with this university since a couple month ago. For today, i got interesting subject in my inbox from AIA… “Banned Smoking”, a warning for the smoker… apply in all work place and public place. I realy appreciate this kind of policy there, it means that goverment begins to concern about public interest. I dont know yet whether in Indonesia that kind of policy has already been published. .. but today i read in newspaper that MUI will publish instruction (fatwa red.) whether smoke is halal or haram. Wew beware!!

~ A New Year 1430 H/2009 greetings for God ~

adiwenatb — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 20:39:27 +0000

Dear God,

It’s a new year, several hours ago were year end. The ending and the beginning of something are so close with personal contemplation, because of that i am sure why these terminology (ending/beginning red.) are exist and have a deep meaning in common. Also for year end and new year, i reach that you sign me a lot of things… “year end” sign me that you’ve given me a strong foundation to move… “new year” sign me that you’ll give me a lot of chance. If i play again my last year video of life… i was nothing without you God… thank you so much you’ve accompanied me with unbeatable faith inside. I wish that i’ve given my best, i’ve showed you a lot of improvement… then now you smile on me ~..yipppiiiiieeee!!!~. This year… a new year, i promise to you that i’ll show you that last year will really2 become a great foundation for my next step… i’ll show you the better one God.. and i’ll make u give me a big2 smile for the ending. You know God, i am so happy with my package of life… dont let me lost all of them. I look forward to getting miracle message “impossible is impossible” from you soon.

Finally.. i wanna say.. Happy New Year 2009 for u God and for all people that always have unbeatable faith of you.

with unbeatable faith,

~ ME~

~ It’s so Fun Step Round to Beat-Generation in Christmas ~

adiwenatb — Fri, 26 Dec 2008 16:31:38 +0000

I always excited if christmas comes. That’s a momment to visit some of my father/mother’s friend… yup give a cake or something for celebrate… have an interesting conversation because so long-long time no see. Mmm actualy i dont celebrate Christmas because i’m a moslem and also my father/mother but they have many friends who celebrate Chrismas.

Over the years, we always do christmas ritual..ya just like i’ve told before. For this ritual i have a fave person.. i call her tante Nyo. She is an old women whose a strong memory..she can remember almost all of her past even about my parents story. Last Christmas, she was in bad condition.. she just laid down on her bed.. looked so skiny and weak. But this Christmas.. she surprised me..hohohoho she looked so healthy.. sometimes she made a joke “now.. i can jump”..hehehe. Sometimes we asked wondered question “How come?? What medicine??” She just answerd that she have a faith that all of this just because God… Hehehe great!! For me.. she is so unique… she had been lived with netherland and chinese tradition (ya.. as we know that we were its Colony and chinese become her ancestor), sometimes i couldnt reach some word..but she told great story…made me burst-out. I hope next Christmas will meet her again altough early-next-year she will move to nursinghouse for the old people in Malang.

“Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!”

~ We Are Just A Medium In Undefind Time ~

adiwenatb — Wed, 17 Dec 2008 11:18:38 +0000

Freshly, i’ve read tante etak’s blog.(hoho actually he came to be called mbak etak.. but i feel closer with “tante” as her title). After i read her posting, a posting “Semoga Cukup Hari Ini” remember me a moment when i was in Jakarta a couple week ago. Ya.. sometimes we dont realise that we are a “medium”… a medium for everything around us who are choosen by Allah… and we are as a medium who are also choosen by Allah.

That moment happened after i went to soekarno-hatta airport to say goodbye with mamah Bul2 as i told on my last posting. Me and mamah ndut toke Damri from airport to gambir, i had to buy a morning train ticket for the next day destination “Yogyakarta”… hmm actually we were wondering that the reservation was still open because it was too late..whereas we were still on the way there. In Damri.. we were not sitting side by side.. mamah ndut was sitting with an old women and i was sitting with a young man hohohoho just kidding that wasnt a big thing. Yup.. suddenly mamah ndut told me that the old woman beside her would go to purwokerto as soon as possible but she hadn’t bought a train ticket, then i had a short conversation with that old woman just to make sure bout her planning.. hehehe sometimes i got trouble to understand her dialect.. ya she came from palembang. From the conversation.. we knew that she came from palembang by her self..just bought a small handbag..unfamiliar about jakarta even about train schedule to purwokerto..went to purwokerto for her child who was sick..no place for staied that night if she didnt get ticket. Sometimes i heard that someone called her and lead her about what she should do. In my mind.. i was disappointed “how come her family let her go alone.. palembang-purwokerto are not a short route”.

Finaly we arrived in Gambir.. i had just forgotten my plan to buy ticket in Senen station (as i knew that my train’s ticket just available there), we were in hurry to reach schedule board and reservation to look for jakarta-purwokerto route.. Hmm thanx God, there was a schedule for that route with the proper price with her budget whereas from the schedule board the price was overbudget for her (how come the price was different in reservation??hehehe maybe i was loss of sight)..Yup finally,this old woman didnt need to stay somewhere that night. After we made sure about her.. we planned to go home, but i saw the reservation still open.. i was attracked to ask about my train for tomorrow… howahahaha yipppie…the ticket was available there. Yup we went home with satisfy feeling. Thanx God..

Yup something that i want to share with all of you is.. sometimes as a human we dont wanna be burden by someone else because we suppose that we cant help (honestly.. i was people like this) but sometimes just doing something with the flow will invite a lot of miracle.. We are just a medium in undefind time.

~ 18 – 26 Nop Road to Jakarta-Jogja ~

adiwenatb — Mon, 01 Dec 2008 07:17:38 +0000

Wew… i luv this tour. Actually this tour wasnt for fun or for spend my leisure time, this tour was for attending a series test of company recruitment.. hmm but i feel so fun… really2 fun. My first destination was jakarta, i wasnt going by my self.. my friend, riris (daughter from my first wife ini drama keluarga), had a same direction with me.. so both of us was venturing togather in jakarta. Hihihi.. she just liked my guide there, coz i had trouble with direction in unfamiliar city… even i had been made clear of that by her.. it didnt work at all.. hahaha what a poor me!!

In jakarta.. for indosat recruitment actually we had to go to UI-Depok, coz the test was held there. Our train arrived in jakarta at 7.30.. then we went to our friend’s place (mamah ndut’s place) to drop our luggage, actually just my luggage… a lot of clothing inside, so i just took a pair of shirt for test and clothing then we went ahead to depok. In Depok we staied at afi’s house, riris’s friend, she also helped us for the direction to UI-Depok… hehe again n again that worked just for riris. First, i thought that the test would be held just a day.. hmmm unfortunately the test was held in 3 days with the elimination system each day to continue to the next day. The announcement was announced at 5.00, alhamdulillah my name was written there so i could go ahead to the second day. That was a good news but i hadnt prepared shirt for the next day.. “oh no.. just brought a pair and i dropped others “exessive luggage” in jakarta”. It was a shame for me.. and riris always teased me about that… haha and you know, i borrowed riris’s shirt for the next day.. hoho what a proper color for me.. “if u dont mind giving that shirt for me pleaseee”.. i feel so lucky with that shirt because i passed that day and continued to the third day for interview, sound better if i called psychological interview.. coz the interviewer brought the result of my psychological test from the second day test and asked me a lot of thing about my self about my progress as a person who passed a lot of thing. Honestly, before i attended the interview .. i was so nervous.. because i knew that it would explore my personality… and i really2 feel worried with my psychological test. Oh..ya.. i went to Depok by economy train, they called KRL (Kereta Listrik), with Rp 1500 i could go jakarta-Depok.. wew so chip.. nevertheless we had to watch out with people around us because there was a lot of people inside the train till we couldnt move freely. I was become the last candidate for interview… hohoho the room just like my own stage… i hope i was become the last candidate who impress the interviewer with my great answear.. Aminnn ^_^. About 30 minutes later interview was finish.. and i went to UI station by ojek… hmm i feel so lucky coz there was a lot of free seat in KRL. The planning for that day was going to gambir and Soekarno-Hatta airport… Gambir was a place to say good bye with Riris, she get a job in Bandung..somewhere outhere from me (hiks.. that was dissatisfied farewell… i hope we’ll see again soon)..then in hurry went to airport… for say good bye with mamah bul2, my friend, she have a trip to finland… hahaha what a lucky girl!! Hmmm…that looked like a long route ya??.. but Dita and me still had a long journey to buy Jogja ticket in gambir and went home by bussway…transit..transit… transit in some busway shelter that i couldnt remember at all.

Yuhu… my business in Jakrta was done.. that meant i could continue my tour to Jogja. I took first train to jogja… at 06.30 then i arrived at 14.30. In Jogja i staied at Ruri‘s house, the twin of my sister’s friend whose name is Nono’”. Ruri’s picked me from Jogja station then she took me for lunch..hoho actually it was breakfast for me. Hmm… lunch time togather with her was enough to make both of us enjoy to adapt with each other. I just thought hmm i was with the strange person in jogja… first, i had to make sure that i wouldnt be in danger to be with her.. (huwakakakak just kidding sapiiiiii…. miss u!!!). Pertamina was be my final destination of my tour… yipiiieee i was feel so free by motorcycle… hoho i went to atmajaya for the test by motorcycle… it was a chance for me to go around jogja with no exact direction… hihihi the rain on the evening made my day so perfect…hoho sopping with rain. In this test… alhamdulillah i pass!! Hohoho.. came home and looked ruri’s worried face of me… hehehe pushed me to laugh and laugh (dasar… dirimuw cupu!!). Next.. i had a free day and i planned to spend my time in malioboro… yup bought something for my sister and my father..huhuhu except for my mother coz we had extremly different in interest of thing. Wew looked around malioboro alone.. did the market game.. yup bargain!! Then i went back to ruri’s home but i looked for lunch first… hohoho bakso quite enough for me. OK… my train was at 16.00, ruri’s drove me there an hour before.. yup.. that’s time for say goodbye with sapiiiii.

Hohoho… i planned for relax in train.. but something shocked me, my sheatmate was a punker. Oh my God, it was so terrible… that guy was strange with freakish style..huhuhu.. made me crazy. I tried to feel enjoy with this unusual condition, we had a lot of conversation. Actually he told me more about his self… made me so amazing how could this guy tell me a lot of thing about his self?? By the time.. that made me respect on this strange guy, wehehe you know.. the passanger looked on us with their question mark face.. “how come this girl and this punker look so close to each other??”.. But actually, i really2 do didnt feel so comfort during that time… fiuh i was so tired.

Mmm… i think it’s enough to tell about my travelin.. hihi.. I’m gonna miss that!!